Velvet thoughts

I have hurt someone I care about, by being selfish, lost and sad.

I don’t know how to live with myself and with that dark, lonely feeling.

I just wanted to feel desired, attractive. And I still don’t.

I crave attention from both of them. Everyday I want to make myself sexy, but it only makes me more vulnerable, so I end up wearing combat boots, combat trousers and black lipstick again, because I feel more secure in it.

I kill myself over and over with Pink Floyd and my sanity is dropping.